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All Generations Receive Healing

  INTRODUCTION

  Tools for Living in the 21st Century

  You stand with one foot

  in the physically based reality,

  and the other in the

  spiritually based reality.

  What is between,

  is the solid ground of your core.

  — HEYOAN

  In my first book, Hands of Light: A Guide to Healing Through the Human Energy Field, I focused primarily on the structure and function of the first seven levels of the human energy field, its relationship to the human body, and its use in hands-on healing. Hands of Light offers a clearer understanding of how and why hands-on healing works.

  In my second book, Light Emerging: The Journey of Personal Healing, I focused on clarifying our healing process with which we create our lives. Our healing process moves through our Human Energy Consciousness System (HECS), which is composed of four dimensions: our physical body, our human energy field, our hara, and our core essence.

  In this third book, Core Light Healing: My Personal Journey and Advanced Healing Concepts for Creating the Life You Long to Live, I describe how to create the life you long to live by learning to understand, heal, release, and utilize your creative life energies that arise out of your core essence in the core of your being. To do so means to learn to recognize and become familiar with the deeper parts of your being. This includes your inner goodness as well as your inner darkness. To release your creative core energies, you need to learn to honor your soul’s longing, the deeper source of light, love, and life within you. This source of creativity within you may be far more powerful than you can imagine. Learning to accept that it is there, and to be with it, will change your life forever. Every living creature on the earth, and most likely everywhere else in the cosmos, has an inner core light, or core essence, that is unique to each. It, in fact, is you!

  I invite you to take this journey with me.

  It will be your journey.

  Each individual’s journey is unique

  as well as personal.

  Let yourself be who you are.

  Who you are is divine.

  Let this essence of self that is light

  shine throughout your body, your field,

  your four dimensions, and your life.

  Let it shine into the universe; it is infinite.

  It will carry you to and through your life

  beyond your most wonderful longing.

  It will carry you into your life,

  the one that you have dreamed of

  as long as you can remember!

  Come with me into the most brilliant,

  honorable you!

  The you that you have not yet dreamed possible!

  It is the one you have longed for all your life!

  My Path, My Life

  Here is a little of my story to give an example of the path I traveled that took me to where I am now. To learn to honor the past is to honor one’s life lessons, no matter what they may have been. So here goes my brief history.

  I was born in Oklahoma in a shack on a large wheat farm. The umbilical cord was wrapped around my neck and I was blue. No doctor was in attendance. My mother told me that they didn’t know if I would survive because I made no sound at birth. But then, as my mother loved to tell me, “You started making lots of noise and you haven’t stopped yet!” Of course, I believed her. She didn’t have a dishonest bone in her body.

  Shortly after I was born, my parents moved us to another state, then from one house to another. It seemed that we moved every two years or so.

  At a young age, I constantly questioned everything about reality, to the annoyance of everyone around me. I just never understood the reality that others seemed to have. It seemed to be all about rules: what not to say, what not to do, how not to behave, and what to believe, even if it was ridiculous. People never seemed to be honest about what they really thought or felt. They just pretended that they felt like they were supposed to feel. I did not think like other people thought. I definitely was not interested in being like everyone else—even in high school! I was more interested in not being like the other girls. We were supposed to study home economics. I wanted to study physics and math. But then the whole high school voted for me to be homecoming queen! I knew that I would be the one, but I had no idea why. I didn’t even have a boyfriend. As homecoming queen, I had to ask a boy to go to the homecoming dance with me. I was way too shy. So finally, I asked the football player I was supposed to ask. I didn’t even know him, and had never even said as much as a “hi” to him before! He said yes. We didn’t even know how to talk to each other since we didn’t know each other at all. I was very embarrassed because my mother had made my dress. Everyone else had beautiful formal gowns their parents had bought for them. I could hardly wait till it was over.

  The University of Wisconsin–Madison

  Since my parents had no money to pay for college, I started to work at the age of twelve. I worked for the neighbors in their garden and babysitting. I continued to work through high school, car hopping at Howard’s A&W Root Beer Stand. After that, I was a waitress, then later a hostess, in a nice restaurant. Halfway through college, I had to drop out for a semester to earn money. To do so, I worked in a door factory from midnight to dawn. I used a hammer to pound together the cracks in the veneers of door fronts after they came out of a big slicing machine. This was probably the worst job I ever had. After earning enough money, I switched from a state college to the University of Wisconsin (UW) in Madison.

  Later, in my first research job at UW, I worked on a research barge going back and forth across Lake Mendota, measuring the moisture content and temperature of the air above the lake. As air blows across the lake, it absorbs water vapor. This experiment was to find out how much the moisture in the air increases as it blew across.

  I earned my BS degree in physics from the physics department, and then my MS degree from the meteorology department at UW. In the meteorology department, I focused on the physics of the upper atmosphere, rather than learning how to predict the weather. My master’s thesis work was to design and build the omnidirectional infrared radiometer that was flown on the Tiros III satellite, the third satellite the U.S. launched. Dr. Verner Suomi was my major professor. He was on President John F. Kennedy’s Science Advisory Board.

  NASA Goddard Space Flight Center

  My first job after college was as a NASA research physicist at Goddard Space Flight Center. This was very early in NASA’s days. I worked on remote sensing instruments that flew on the Nimbus 2 satellite. I built them, tested them, and also calibrated them, both in the lab before flight and also when they were in flight on the satellites.

  The instrument, called the medium-resolution infrared radiometer, or MRIR for short, was flown on the Nimbus 2 satellite. The MRIR measured radiation from the earth in five different wavelength bands, ranging from the ultraviolet through the visible to the infrared ranges of the electromagnetic spectrum. I worked on the data from these instruments, and wrote and published papers about the information we learned.

  When there was trouble interpreting the satellite data, we used a Convair 990 aircraft (named Galileo) to verify the data. I was “principal investigator” for the MRIR airplane measurements taken to verify the MRIR satellite data. We flew as high as possible, directly under the Nimbus 2 satellite as it passed overhead. We did this for all kinds of different earth surfaces, such as the highly concentrated saltwater basin of the Salton Sea in Southern California, the extremely dry desert called the Salar de Atacama in Argentina, the thick green jungles at the headwaters of the Amazon called the Rio Negro, the Arctic ice caps, the cold Antarctic Ross ice shelf, in storms in both the Atlantic and the Pacific Oceans over several different ocean wave heights, and over many types of cloud formations. All of this was to measure the differences in both the reflected and radiated light from different earth surfaces, at different altitudes, to calibrate the effects of the at
mosphere on the radiation coming from the earth. We needed all these measurements to compare to the satellite data. Between expeditions, I would work on the data to create ways to correct the satellite data that was modified by the atmosphere. I loved my job at Goddard. I still miss it to this day.

  Several years later, while I was still doing research at Goddard, things in America where changing, especially in the Washington, D.C., area where I was living. Women’s liberation and race riots were making big headlines in Washington and affecting the whole country. Since I was a physicist, I hadn’t thought about women’s liberation. But then I realized that the job I had was very unusual for women at that time. In fact, I was the only woman physicist in my division for several years, until Mary Tobin was hired. Then we were the only two female scientists in our division. I presume there were more women at Goddard, but not in our division.

  At that time, I lived in a part of Washington, D.C., that was a mostly black community. Having been raised in Wisconsin, and having started working early in life, I had just never thought about race or sexual orientation. I was not familiar with the injustices with which black and gay people were treated. Some of our co-workers at Goddard were black. Mary and I thought nothing of renting a car and riding around with our platonic co-working friends to see the sights wherever our expeditions took us. However, one day when we were flying out of a southern U.S. city, our two friends refused to go with us.

  We were shocked and couldn’t figure out why they were so mad at us! We didn’t know what we had done wrong. They then reminded us that they were black men, and that we were in the southern United States. It was too dangerous. We were shocked that simply riding around in a car with our colleagues would be dangerous. This woke me up to what was going on in the country. I got involved!

  I supported equal rights for all. I even joined the women’s rights movement and marched for equal pay for women. I did this even though I had always been respected in my profession and earned pay equal to that of my male colleagues at NASA. I found out that many women in the U.S. were underpaid. It was a real wake-up call for me. I began to think of other issues in life. With all the social issues arising in D.C., I started to change.

  I became interested in inner space and psychological processes. I began taking weekend workshops in bioenergetics. I liked it so much that I started training to be a bioenergetic therapist at the Institute of Psychophysical Synthesis in Washington, D.C.

  The Institute for Psychophysical Synthesis

  I trained full-time (40 hours/week) for two years in body psychotherapy in Washington, D.C., at the Institute for Psychophysical Synthesis. During this time, I learned to perceive the human energy fields (HEFs). One of the people who ran the training group I joined was blind from cataracts at the time. But she could clearly see and describe the flow of energy through the bodies of the students in the group. So I decided to observe how she was “seeing,” and copy what she was doing. To my surprise, it worked! Once I learned to copy what she did, I could also see what she described. At first I was stunned by what I was “seeing,” since at that time I had never heard of such a thing.

  I continued to hone my skills by methodically observing how my HEF functioned when I used my high sense perception (HSP) to observe the HEF of my clients. HSP is simply a way to receive information through the use of the natural built-in senses that we already have but most people simply do not acknowledge, much less know how to use. So they simply do not develop the ability to do so. I coined the term high sense perception because at that time the words psychic or clairvoyant implied weird stuff. I learned a lot from these simple observations. And I chose not to mention what I was seeing to others for several years.

  I was very surprised about how systematically and logically the HEF functioned. I noticed how similar the human energy field and the natural earth energy fields I measured with the MRIR at Goddard appeared to be. Yet this was different; the instrument was in my own head. What a surprise that was! It even functioned like the MRIR in some ways. So I simply proceeded to develop and fine-tune my ability to perceive the HEF by making more observations of the phenomenon with my HSP. I used my HSP to observe the HEF phenomenon within and between people. I watched the HEF interactions as people went through personal psychological processes while I was in training to become a bioenergetic therapist. I continued this practice of observation when I became a therapist and group leader. I learned a lot about people’s energetic habitual defense systems that eventually cause their physical health issues.

  I was amazed at how much information was available through HSP. The person’s thoughts, feelings, and movements all showed in the HEF before they happened in the physical world.

  To clarify how HSP worked, I observed my own HEF at the same time as I observed my clients’ HEF by switching focus from the other to myself very quickly. My observations revealed that an enormous amount of detailed information is contained in these natural bioenergy fields. This includes information about the client’s health, causes of absence of health, the relationship between mental and emotional functioning, how the HEF’s functioning affects the physical body’s health, as well as the client’s life choices and the lifestyle that results from those choices. I wrote about this in Hands of Light.

  In Light Emerging, I focused on the process of healing through our four dimensions, or HECS—the physical body, the human energy field, the hara, and the core essence. I also included how human interactions can be understood from the perspective of our four dimensions. I first learned about these four dimensions from the channeling I did when teaching healing.

  New ideas take some time to get used to, especially ones that affect us personally. Sometimes religious doctrines are used to stop the new ideas from catching on! Science has freed us from many of the old ways. For years the church taught that the earth was the center of the universe. The earth was the realm of man and the realms of heaven were in the sky on clear spheres rotating around Earth. Yet science has not had an easy birthing. When Galileo looked more closely through his telescope and saw that the earth was not the center of the universe, he was considered a heretic and locked up by the church. Many years later, when Pasteur tried to teach his germ theory of disease, people ridiculed him, saying, “How could something that is so tiny that I can’t even see it kill me?” Now it is accepted as common knowledge. We have learned to trust science. Science has drastically changed our views of reality. The idea of action at a distance and the concept of a force field are needed to explain observable natural phenomena such as gravity and electromagnetism. Someone had to think of that, and along came Isaac Newton and James Clerk Maxwell. Their work scientifically proved one did not have to physically touch something to affect it.

  Science surprises us as it challenges our old beliefs. Now we look out into the universe and see other possible worlds. There is water on Mars! Is there life on it? Yep, we found it—microorganisms (not the little green men of our fantasies). More recently, with the Cassini probe, it has been discovered that there is more water in interstellar space than on the earth. Wow, that’s a new one! The reason to look for water is that it is intimately associated with biological life (as we know it so far).

  So why do we not assume that life, even intelligent life, is everywhere, rather than rare? Yes, we need to prove it, yet why the negative assumption? Why not say, “Life must come in many forms! Life is probably everywhere! Let’s try to find it in its many surprising forms!” It is only a matter of time before science finds life throughout the universe. We are just beginning to look.

  Someday, with the help of science, we will develop instruments to find and measure the energy consciousness fields that are (from my perspective) an intimate part of life. Yet in order to research something, one must become curious about observed phenomena. Then one must have some ideas about what one is observing and what to look for.

  It is even better to have some personal experiences that spark the curiosity to find the right questions. Then ques
tions can be asked through observations. Questions lead to more questions and eventually to some hypothesis to check out. Then one can eventually postulate a theory, check the theory with experimental evidence, and eventually, with hard work, prove or disprove it. There is always more on the horizon.

  I loved that NASA job and respected the dedicated scientists with whom I worked. We were some of the first who were privileged to be part of that early exploration.

  But as the 1970s began, and times changed, I became more interested in inner space. I began focusing on inner space to discover what within me needed healing and development. I had personal process sessions to explore my inner reality, how it developed, and how my childhood experiences affected my experience of reality. I explored the choices I had made in personal relationships, and changed them if they were not healthy for me. The exploration of my “inner space” became so interesting that I decided to study it formally. So I resigned from my research position at Goddard. In the required formal resignation form, I had to fill out my reason for resigning. I wrote down the words from a popular song called “The Great Mandala,” which talked about taking one’s place on the wheel of life as it turns through one’s brief moment in time.

  My favorite boss at Goddard, Dr. Bill Nordberg, who was born in the remote mountains of Austria, was always lighthearted and kind. I always respected and enjoyed working with him. After reading my resignation form, he called me into his office and asked in a jovial tone:

  “Barbara! What’s a Mandala?!!!”

  We both had a good laugh!

  Core Energetics

  I studied several types of body-centered psychology in Washington, D.C., in a curriculum developed by James Cox, D.Th., at the Institute for Psychophysical Synthesis—later called the Community of the Whole Person—and developed a practice in it. Then, to learn more, I studied bioenergetics with John Pierrakos, M.D., who co-founded the Bioenergetics Institute in New York City with Dr. Al Lowen. Dr. Lowen is the author of the popular book Language of the Body, as well as other books.